I recently started a bible study with a great group of women who i truly believe were placed in my life by the Glory of God. I have always considered myself a Christian woman but I have recently discovered that saying your a Christian and believing and acting as one are two totally different things. Our study is over contentment and truly believing that God is in control of every aspect of our lives whether it be family, finances, or whatever he is there and wants us to give him all our worries and anxieties. I am the worlds worse at worrying. I worry about worrying. There are so many things surrounding me at this very moment that i "could" be worrying about. I could worry that I may never get pregnant again or if I do I might have another miscarriage. I could worry that our house might not ever sale and we might forever be in our cute little house with our CRAZY four dogs running around all over. I could worry about my sweet sisters and the issues they have in their lives. I could worry about someone i love getting cancer. I could worry about work, my education, my future. I could go on and on and believe me I really did worry about all those things. However, I am beginning to understand that our God is a good God and doesn't want us to carry all these burdens. Worrying is a sin as is being anxious. I did not know that! I can honestly say now that I have given all my worries to God and I know his will will be done with all of them. There is a verse from Psalm that stays in my head and I wanted to share it with you all. It is Psalm 139.
"O Lord, you have searched me and known me. You know my sitting down and my rising up; you understand my thought afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word on my tongue, but behold, O Lord, you know it altogether. You have hedged me behind and before, and laid your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is high, I cannot attain it. Where can I go from your Spirit? Or where can I flee from your presence? If I ascend into heaven, you are there; if I make my bed in hell, behold, you are there. If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me. If I say, 'Surely the darkness shall fall on me,' even the night shall be light about me; indeed, the darkness shall not hide from you, but the night shines as the day; the darkness and the light are both alike to you. For you formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well."
I love this Psalm so much! It gives me such joy and a "calm" i have never felt before. He knows me! He knew me when I was in my momma's tummy. He walks with me everywhere I go and he knows all my days. How comforting is this!? I struggle every day with my walk with the Lord, but thru my faith and prayer, my walk with God is growing stronger EVERY DAY!
